It has been a while since the last post. I was struggling with life decisions. Some of very crucial decisions of my life. I will not say that it has all been sorted out but I am feeling better. Felling better because I have decided to help myself, help my body, my brain and overall be a better person.
I started earning from what I do best. Talking, listening to people and sharing my life experience. It's no secret any more, from just one life changing tweet:
To a complete financial independence. I started off suspiciously but didn't have much to lose, I spend 50$ on doughnuts anyway, but as the time passed, it just got better.
Just 3 days later and I'm working full time, earning the money my friends and family can only dream about.
It's not rocket science, YOU can do this, girl. Click HERE and you'll see what I'm talking about.
"I love you, But I am not a relationship person. If I could be that person, I'd definitely date you, but I'm not". Does that sound believable to you? When you are in love with someone, you want nothing more than to be a part of their life, right?
He is a relationship, but it's not you he want. And if you fall for that line I can assure you he will drop you the moment he set his eyes on that Lady that is worth it all.
Don't let any guy manipulate you, don't wait for any guy to decide if he likes you or have feelings for you, men are not stupid. They know what they want from day ONE. I know love makes us wear rose-coloured glasses, but sometimes you have to remove them and look at things with those pretty eyes God gave you. You have to question things and over analyze.. You have to sit yourself down and tell yourself the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.. Because love cannot be found where it does not exist. That's the difference between being patient and wasting your time.
Dry your eyes, darling, because no boy is worth crying over and he’s certainly not crying over you. Clean yourself up and realize you’re the only one who can glue yourself back together when the broken pieces of you fall apart. Look him in the eyes. Even when it hurts, keep staring. Do not smile. Let him know without any words that you are over him. You are going to feel like a knife's been jabbed inside you, but keep it together, it'll be over soon. Plot your revenge but keep it in your back pocket because revenge is never a good idea.
Stop beating yourself up for letting him in. Not every wall you build is going to be stable enough to keep out some people. Build yourself a new one. It’s okay to hurt. It’s okay to throw things, and feel slightly better when they turn into glass shards as they hit the floor. It’s okay to scream into your pillow and shed a few tears because it doesn’t make you weak. It makes you human. Listen to the songs that make you think of him and erase every memory that comes to mind. Get out of bed, kiss the mirror because you deserve all the happiness in the world. You are good enough, you are too good. And if he didn’t see that it’s his loss.. Be crazy. Be bold. Wink at the people you find attractive. You are strong, we all fall down in the journey of love, but we must be bold enough to get up stronger than ever and move forward. Always move forward.
It's happening again... I met him two months ago and the feelings are gone already... I woke up two weeks ago feeling nothing for him.. For the past two week I've been trying to fix it, get the feelings back. I've tried everything. Normally I won't be worried, I'm used to feelings vanishing over night.. But this particular someone, I really want in my life, he makes me laugh.. We have so much in common that it scares me. I don't want to push him away, I truly want him in my life.
Dearest Diary..
What should I do? I'm confused, I need a miracle.
I need help.. Should I hold on? Or should I let him go and wait for another storm? Have I mentioned how this someone is just perfect for me, he's everything I ever wanted and so much more.
The sooner our friends realize we don't control our hearts the better.. And most of the time, everything that you see wrong with the people we are in love with, we see them too. And they are our greatest fears. The things that make us lose sleep at night. The things that make us lose our appetite.. Instead of you to keep on reminding us that the people we are in love with are bad for us, why not just save that energy for when we are finally able to admit it to ourselves, when we need a shoulder to cry on.
Be supportive for now. You don't have to encourage us, or even sing praises of the subject of affection.. You can just sit and listen to us talk about him, be happy for us, smile with us. And when it is time to cry with us, saying "I knew it wouldn't work out" will be a very bad idea. Because real FRIENDS support you no matter what. Real FRIENDS stand with with you in the rain and in the sun.
Real friends don't tell you to stop loving someone because they know you have no control over your heart.. And if it doesn't work out, so be it. We win some, we lose some. But, someday when they're ready, you'll laugh about it together. That I am very sure of.
